Now, my definition has changed for adaptation, and, to my research purposes and future ambition. I have to choose one, not balanced everything and my hobbies.

It has been a struggle since I got my Honours, I feel lucky for me to have the chance to work with the one whom I never seen or met or even work together before. And I felt that it is my honour and pleasure to work with them and they are my lifesaver from last year (not a disaster but a bad moment to look at it). I have to say each time since I start to do my research, because it is kinda like a self-motivation to do or you failed to deliver the progress, it has been a massive embarrassment for me to see when only 1-2 days per week I do productivity or other day of the week, I really struggle to keep out of the bed or even hanging out, which really make a huge potential disaster if I failed my Honour once again, which I believe that this is the last chance to do so.

Every time since 2024, my internal motivation has dropped gradually, and I felt like I consume a lot more Internet which is unrelated to my ambition and my future, although I have adapted gradually till nowadays for productivity and enhancement between work and rest. At home is like, I have the laptop and mobile and with that, I consume internet browser is much serious as I thought, and incognito is the one that make you feel powerful to see anything, but it is a trap that impacts on my productivity. I have to say I consume a lot of topic, which most of them are not align with what I do with my aim to be successful on my Honour degree.

Now, I have things to do. First of all, I have to clean everything when I open my laptop, because the mess means that I feel low energy to do something, same as tidy the house. Because me and you do not really want to see doing work with a lot of tab but some of them are unnecessary for work and not organised. Secondly, stop open the incognito, you may have the power of incognito to do everything, but trust me, this will impact on my motivation, energy, and schedule, and ambition that I have been setup a lot on my whole device. Incognito is open to free, but not for the productivity, mindfulness, resilience. Finally, ATTITUDE is the one to be successful, unlike hardworking or smart. Because attitude means you are responsible for everything you do, from time to task management, everything comes into that behaviour.

Attitude score (source: (source: https://www.slideshare.net/slideshow/attitude-100-presentation/832594)
Hardwork and Knowledge score (source: https://www.slideshare.net/slideshow/attitude-100-presentation/832594)

Now, the new chapter is begin, I write this to tell myself that I have to change or I failed the 1 year crucial Honours.

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